Confusion

Hmmm, pretty interesting reading through this blog of mine.

Can’t find an accounting job so I go decide I want to work at Guitar Center, I get a job at Guitar Center and realize I want an accounting job.
Don’t get me wrong, Guitar Center is a cool place to work. However, not a cool place to get paid. I am realizing I will not be able to pay my bills working at Guitar Center.

So, off to H&R Block I go. I went there the other day. It all seemed too easy. I went in, introduced myself, and they said ok. It didn’t appear that any that there will be any problems in me working there this tax season. I will have to take one class, the software update was recommended.

I know this is a temporary solution, however, it will get me by. I don’t think Guitar Center is going to be enough to get me by.

In other news, I have started doing some accounting for my Dad’s dealership. It has really helped my confidence. I bought a book on Quickbooks, and have been going through it little by little. Now that I have a real life example its pretty cool to realize I can do this accounting thing. I am realizing it’s a fear of the unknown, now that I have broken through to a small taste of “real accounting” its really nothing to be afraid of. Hopefully, after tax season, 6 months of bookkeeping experience on the resume will put me over the hump to get a job.

In the mean time, I am still applying for jobs online. It just seems so helpless. I have not been getting any responses like I did in the past. No emails, no phone calls. Who knows.

A New Plan

So I got a job.

Since I started I have only thought about when I will quit. I know this job is not for me. I just hope that it will get me through the holiday season.

Also, the more I work at Guitar Center I realize that everyone that I work with has mulitple sources of income. I do not. This is my chance to make some money. I have to take it. Although it is not "fair" to the sales people I am working with, I have to do what is right for me.

The new plan is just to hold out for Tax season. The plan is to go to H&R Block in January and leave sometime around April. When I thought about it, this is the best possible situation. The only reason I am where I am right now, is because the money made at H&R Block. If I work a TON, I can not go wrong.

So although it is only 4 days into the job, I really feel this is what I have to do.

The only thing is what happens April 16th.
Hopefully if this bookkeeping thing with my Dad works out, I can add that to my resume and everything will be great. That is what I am hoping for.

That is all for now, maybe it will all change next week. Who knows.

Got a job!

So I got a job.

I am working at Guitar Center.

I am extremely happy about this. It is like being a kid and working at Toy’s R Us. It doesn’t get much better.

The problem which I am trying not to concern myself with is this…

Money represents freedom in our society.
The more money you have, the freer you are to do whatever it is you want.

To get money, we make ourselves un-free. We bind ourselves, we enslave ourselves in the name of more money.

The cycle continues, and it seems that the more we enslave our selves, the more freedom we have.

Does this make sense?

To gain more freedom, we deprive ourselves of freedom.

The key here is to change the perspective of working. Going to work does not necessarily mean enslaving oneself.

The challenge is to find work that to you is not enslaving. The thing is, this is different for everyone.

The thing with me and work, is that I have never really enjoyed working. It has always been the sense of enslavement. The sign shop was fun on occasion, but also miserable at times. Moving Coors beer was fun on occasion but miserable at times. I guess regardless there will be good or bad.

The need here is for balance. How much money is it worth to enslave your self. If the job really sucks, then a lot of money. If the job is not that bad, then it might be less money. Regardless, I am happy to finally have the opportunity to give something my all. I want to do well at this. I want to say I gave it everything I had and this is what I got. I know starting something new is never an easy thing, but I am motivated to do this, and do it well, and give it everything. I think that will give me something I can feel good about.

The degree is nice, but I know I could have done better in school, I know I didn’t try my hardest or give it my all. Here is my opportunity to feel good about something I am doing, working at, and wanting to succeed at. Everything is looking up.